I found this on someone else's blog and thought I'd like to do it! Thank you Kate P. for your idea!!!!
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes, My name is Deanna (Dean) Grandpa Dean Smith, Father Troy DEAN Smith, (Anna) My mother Anna! :) I know there were more my mom has written in my baby book! But these are the three I can remember right off hand!
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Well I've always been a very emotional person so I cry when I'm happy, mad, sad, LOL The last time I cried was last night!
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes I do :)
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
I love cotto salami, pickled bologna, and turkey :)
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Well I have 3 biological children: Brooklyn 6, Easton 3, and Azylen 1. Then I have 10 or more children that I consider a HUGE part in my life!!! LOL But only three of them are with me 24/7!
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Totally! I think i am a pretty great friend :)
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?
I like to kid around alot and sometimes! But I don't like the whole meaning of sarcasm.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yes
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Honestly probably not now.... Before I became a mother I would have I loved doing things like that but now i get stuck with all the what ifs.... and who would take care of them if I had an accident?
10. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
LOL well i do if my children are watching because I don't want them to not untie their shoes.... But if they're not looking i don't LOL is that bad?
11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Tootie Fruitys,
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
yes, I am pretty strong in my faith, my views, my priorities.... Physically I would say no but then considering i gave birth to three children, I would say YES! :)
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM....
Vanilla, because I can put whatever I feel like at that moment on it!
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Whether they are smiling or not!
15. RED OR PINK?
Pink
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Physically: Love Handles.... Other than that I am pretty happy with myself :)
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
I miss alot of people.... I miss my father the most just want his grandchildren to meet him!
18. WHAT IS THE TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST?
Less getting upset with my children and more understanding where they are coming from or why they are doing something in particular.
19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
I'm not wearing any shoes.
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Speghetti, peas and milk
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
The dishwasher, washing machine and complete quiet while the kids are sleeping for nap.
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Green :)
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Rain, Fresh cut grass, Wet dirt, and mangos!
24. HOW IMPORTANT ARE YOUR POLITICAL VIEWS TO YOU?
They are more important now than they were 6 years ago... But still not my life...
25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE
Both sound amazing but if i had to choose it would be the mountain hideaway
26. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
Basketball
27. HAIR COLOR
My hair is natural its reddish brown with blonde, black and red highlights.
28. EYE COLOR?
Blue
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
no
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
so many.... But all time is mashed potatoes, or spaghetti!
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
I love happy endings :)
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Safe Haven
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Red
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
I Like both to an extent my favorites are fall and spring.
35. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Coffee Cake, Oreos.
36. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
Cardio :)
37. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
Computer
38. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Taking Care of Me By MK Mueller!
39. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
No mouse just my labtop!
40. FAVORITE SOUND
Children Laughing/giggling
41. FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC!
I don't have a favorite I love it all!!!!!
42. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME....
1600 miles living away from home.... Florida is probably the furthest though!
43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I think i have many talents! I'm a super hero! LOL
44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Gordon Nebraska!
45. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
Martin, South Dakota!
46. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?
Tannish yellow?
47. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
Charcoal Grey
48. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 48 QUESTIONS?
yes that was fun :) I like talking about me LOL
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Thursday, May 23, 2013
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Taking Care of Me......
Just 19 pages into the book, its made me think alot! Why am I the way I am? Who do I give credit to? What would I tell others about me? And who I am, or why I am the way I am?
MK Mueller has on page 19 are you: BC or AD? Unhappy, negative attitude individuals live in B.C. (Blaming and Complaining) "If only he..." "If only She...." or "if only They...." thoughts cloud their vision and distract them from their dreams. They give away their power by believing they have none.... Am I in this category!!!! If I was to answer NO that could be a lie! I do sometimes live in B.C.! I do have moments in my day that I start blaming or complaining.... about anything really.... If only Azylen would have slept all night I would have slept better, If only they would stop throwing out the Racism card our community would be better..... and on and on and on... For the most part though i Live in A.D. (Act and Dream) Happy, positive attitude individuals live in A.D. Whenever something does not go as planned in their lives they Act and get back on track, and/or Dream and visualize what they want to manifest.
If Someone were to ask me why my life is like it is, I would most likely tell them.....
Deanna: I would most likely tell people my life is the way it is because I wanted it to be the way it is... I knew what I wanted in life, I didn't get here happy all the time and the road was rough.... I'm not where I want to be so I continue to go go go! My life is the way it is through my experiences good and bad! I learned from everything I've gone through in my life....
How much of the time am I in B.C.?
Deanna: I do have my B.C. days and I try to stay away from them as much as possible... when I am in B.C. mode I don't feel good, about myself, my life or anything around me.... When I get into B.C. mode I fear I am getting depressed and I try hard as I can to try and get back to feeling good!!! The Three thinks I am grateful for everyday has helped with this and I will do them anytime I start feeling like i'm getting into the B.C. mode LOL
"Pain is required, Suffering is Optional.."
Truly happy individuals are far from selfish. Shelfishness is defined as "Showing care only for oneself." Take time now to write out the names of 5 of the happiest people you have met. They may be living or have passed on.
Deanna:
1. Uncle Kenny Sargent.
2. Uncle Lyle Haynes
3. My Mom
4. Mr. Smith
5. Connie Jones :)
I will leave you with this... HOw would you answer these questions? Are you living in B.C or A.D.? Are you trying to make others happy before making yourself happy? Do you realize that you cannot in fact make anyone else any more happy if you're not happy yourself?
MK Mueller has on page 19 are you: BC or AD? Unhappy, negative attitude individuals live in B.C. (Blaming and Complaining) "If only he..." "If only She...." or "if only They...." thoughts cloud their vision and distract them from their dreams. They give away their power by believing they have none.... Am I in this category!!!! If I was to answer NO that could be a lie! I do sometimes live in B.C.! I do have moments in my day that I start blaming or complaining.... about anything really.... If only Azylen would have slept all night I would have slept better, If only they would stop throwing out the Racism card our community would be better..... and on and on and on... For the most part though i Live in A.D. (Act and Dream) Happy, positive attitude individuals live in A.D. Whenever something does not go as planned in their lives they Act and get back on track, and/or Dream and visualize what they want to manifest.
If Someone were to ask me why my life is like it is, I would most likely tell them.....
Deanna: I would most likely tell people my life is the way it is because I wanted it to be the way it is... I knew what I wanted in life, I didn't get here happy all the time and the road was rough.... I'm not where I want to be so I continue to go go go! My life is the way it is through my experiences good and bad! I learned from everything I've gone through in my life....
How much of the time am I in B.C.?
Deanna: I do have my B.C. days and I try to stay away from them as much as possible... when I am in B.C. mode I don't feel good, about myself, my life or anything around me.... When I get into B.C. mode I fear I am getting depressed and I try hard as I can to try and get back to feeling good!!! The Three thinks I am grateful for everyday has helped with this and I will do them anytime I start feeling like i'm getting into the B.C. mode LOL
"Pain is required, Suffering is Optional.."
Truly happy individuals are far from selfish. Shelfishness is defined as "Showing care only for oneself." Take time now to write out the names of 5 of the happiest people you have met. They may be living or have passed on.
Deanna:
1. Uncle Kenny Sargent.
2. Uncle Lyle Haynes
3. My Mom
4. Mr. Smith
5. Connie Jones :)
I will leave you with this... HOw would you answer these questions? Are you living in B.C or A.D.? Are you trying to make others happy before making yourself happy? Do you realize that you cannot in fact make anyone else any more happy if you're not happy yourself?
This is the Life :)
My Name is Deanna Coleman, I am a mother of THREE beautiful Children! I am the wife of an awesome and purpose driven husband! I am a Daughter, sister, Auntie, Friend, and I am AWESOME!
My Job is a Daycare Provider of 10 more Amazing little children! I get to see them grow, learn, and Play! I get to see them both at their worst and their best!
My Most important job though is being a mommy.... I have a 6 year Old daughter who just completed the 1st grade with PERFECT ATTENDANCE!!!!! She loves to dance, write, color, do anything involving art, and watch TV! She is so very friendly and growing up so fast! I have a 3 year old son, who is equally amazing! He is talking so much, he enjoys seeing his friends everyday but lets me know through frustration when he has had enough! I work on him with Sharing and being nice and then realize that in fact he is sharing every day! He has to share his mommy, his toys, his life with all these other kids, I suppose that is very stressful and frustrating at times, he does pretty good! I have a 1 year old Daughter who is just learning to walk! She is talking, saying many different words, Expressions are priceless, she is very smart!
My hobbies include: Community Service, Making others see the potential in themselves, pushing others to give it their all and realize that their happiness is all up to them! I love to dance, sing, play, stretch, walk, and Run (This is something I do in my head right now) LOL. I love meeting new people... although upon becoming a mother I have a very hard time meeting new people.... its an unexpected fall back, but i'm working on that!
My fears include cram packed rooms... (Of people), Losing someone (I go overboard on this one), Hurting someones feelings, not living up to my own expectations of myself.
My favorite colors are: green, Pink and Purple, blue, well I pretty much LOVE all colors!
My husband along with being my best friend is also my motivator! I can get down and he picks me up and throws me back into life! :P He is a Flight Paramedic for Black Hills Life Flight! He is the Base Manager there. He is a photographer, teacher, music fanatic, and loves to be free! He loves to take risks and strive for the best he can be! I've never met a man as strong as he is! He of course made his life, he made mistakes, he had his whole world fall over top of him, and then he picked himself up piece by piece and made himself better than he's ever been in his life! I love him so very much!
This life I live, is the LIFE! Its awesome! Its perfect! We all have our ups and downs but the downs make me stronger, they give me purpose to strive to jump higher! I appreciate the downs and I love the ups! I learn everyday through others, through my own experiences! I CHOOSE TO LOVE MY LIFE as it is! I choose to work hard to make it even more AWESOME!
Just thought I'd let you know a little more about myself and my life :) Hope you enjoy reading as much as I enjoyed writing it :)
My Job is a Daycare Provider of 10 more Amazing little children! I get to see them grow, learn, and Play! I get to see them both at their worst and their best!
My Most important job though is being a mommy.... I have a 6 year Old daughter who just completed the 1st grade with PERFECT ATTENDANCE!!!!! She loves to dance, write, color, do anything involving art, and watch TV! She is so very friendly and growing up so fast! I have a 3 year old son, who is equally amazing! He is talking so much, he enjoys seeing his friends everyday but lets me know through frustration when he has had enough! I work on him with Sharing and being nice and then realize that in fact he is sharing every day! He has to share his mommy, his toys, his life with all these other kids, I suppose that is very stressful and frustrating at times, he does pretty good! I have a 1 year old Daughter who is just learning to walk! She is talking, saying many different words, Expressions are priceless, she is very smart!
My hobbies include: Community Service, Making others see the potential in themselves, pushing others to give it their all and realize that their happiness is all up to them! I love to dance, sing, play, stretch, walk, and Run (This is something I do in my head right now) LOL. I love meeting new people... although upon becoming a mother I have a very hard time meeting new people.... its an unexpected fall back, but i'm working on that!
My fears include cram packed rooms... (Of people), Losing someone (I go overboard on this one), Hurting someones feelings, not living up to my own expectations of myself.
My favorite colors are: green, Pink and Purple, blue, well I pretty much LOVE all colors!
My husband along with being my best friend is also my motivator! I can get down and he picks me up and throws me back into life! :P He is a Flight Paramedic for Black Hills Life Flight! He is the Base Manager there. He is a photographer, teacher, music fanatic, and loves to be free! He loves to take risks and strive for the best he can be! I've never met a man as strong as he is! He of course made his life, he made mistakes, he had his whole world fall over top of him, and then he picked himself up piece by piece and made himself better than he's ever been in his life! I love him so very much!
This life I live, is the LIFE! Its awesome! Its perfect! We all have our ups and downs but the downs make me stronger, they give me purpose to strive to jump higher! I appreciate the downs and I love the ups! I learn everyday through others, through my own experiences! I CHOOSE TO LOVE MY LIFE as it is! I choose to work hard to make it even more AWESOME!
Just thought I'd let you know a little more about myself and my life :) Hope you enjoy reading as much as I enjoyed writing it :)
Monday, May 13, 2013
Pouty Blog......
You know I have alot of friends..... but not.... I have a lot of people 100's of people I call my friends but I don't have any friends..... Make any sense? LOL
I am home finally got the kids to sleep and I feel like hanging out with a friend.... My only friend that would be here at the drop of a dime is working..... I'm not sure how i'm feeling a little friendless I guess :) I don't really hang out with anyone except my parents, my children, My husband and the daycare kids, and every other week I have a playdate and we meet up.... But other than that I don't hang out with anyone on a regular basis! I miss having a best girlfriend to spend the night with or to come spend the night with me.... To ride bikes with, eat with, hang out.... I haven't really had that at all since I graduated high school 10 years ago! We all went our separate ways! Then in Virginia I had a great friend that I couldn't be separated from and then we started having kids and we haven't seen each other in years!!!
I have many friends I could call on the phone and talk to for hours! But noone to be here..... hmmmm Just my thought for the night.... I guess when your married and have children you don't really get to have that kind of friendship anymore with anyone except your spouse.... Whom I love by the way but he's working and I want a girl friend to do stuff with :P Pouting Blog.... Guess i'll have to work harder on this....
I guess when i think about what I want.... I want a friendship like I remember my mom and Aunt Betty having.... All of us kids would play for hours and our moms did everything together.... I want that.
I am home finally got the kids to sleep and I feel like hanging out with a friend.... My only friend that would be here at the drop of a dime is working..... I'm not sure how i'm feeling a little friendless I guess :) I don't really hang out with anyone except my parents, my children, My husband and the daycare kids, and every other week I have a playdate and we meet up.... But other than that I don't hang out with anyone on a regular basis! I miss having a best girlfriend to spend the night with or to come spend the night with me.... To ride bikes with, eat with, hang out.... I haven't really had that at all since I graduated high school 10 years ago! We all went our separate ways! Then in Virginia I had a great friend that I couldn't be separated from and then we started having kids and we haven't seen each other in years!!!
I have many friends I could call on the phone and talk to for hours! But noone to be here..... hmmmm Just my thought for the night.... I guess when your married and have children you don't really get to have that kind of friendship anymore with anyone except your spouse.... Whom I love by the way but he's working and I want a girl friend to do stuff with :P Pouting Blog.... Guess i'll have to work harder on this....
I guess when i think about what I want.... I want a friendship like I remember my mom and Aunt Betty having.... All of us kids would play for hours and our moms did everything together.... I want that.
Thinking......
Sitting here waiting for the last child of 10 to fall asleep so that I can go start my second round of cleaning the kitchen, dishes, mopping, washing down tables and chairs and high chairs, laundry and straightening up stuff for the afternoon! I'm thinking......
"If only I had time to journal, I may have a separate journal for each part of me, my own personal thoughts, Brooklyn's, Easton's, and Azylens daily doings, milestones, things they say or do!, a daycare one because if I wrote down everything they say that may be an awesome thing to had them when they leave me to go to school full time...... If only I had time"
Then I start thinking......
"We'll if I had time I think before I write the journals I'd have to catch up on the past four years of scrapbooks!!!!! I'd have to Start Easton's and Start Azylens, and catch up on the rest...."
If you know my family, or better if you know my mother.... She has a journal and a scrapbook for all of us kids!!!!! She is superwoman..... I need to figure out how to do that.... At any rate now I'm going to be on a mission to get those totes full of stuff for scrapbooks out of my office!!!!!
I need like two weeks of just scrapbooking time and ill get it all done! Anyone want to volunteer to take over my children and daycare while I take a two week vacation of scrapbook catch up?!?!?!? Lol
Friday, May 10, 2013
Taking Care of ME!
Taking Care of Me: The Habits of Happiness By: Mary Kay Mueller.
I have to say before I start that this woman is amazing.... I admire her and thank her very much for many of my thoughts and feelings, truths and path in the last few weeks..... I had already been on the path i'm going now, but she inspired me to go BIGGER, do MORE, enjoy it more and remember to take care of myself while I'm on my mission of helping others...... I am so blessed to have met her in person! I wish I could have sat down and talked to her for a few whole days or weeks! She just radiates her passion and her awesomeness......
So I am 8 pages into this book (Which I HIGHLY recommend!) and I've come across the first things I want to blog about..... YOUR POWER>....... HMMMM Did you know you have powers? They are SUPER powers and we all have them! I know I have power I have seen it work in many ways.... Through me and through others I've talked to.... I'm not trying to sound all high and mighty.... I'm actually talking about the power to choose.... Choose what you want with your life, choose your own path.... This POwer is YOURS you should never give it away unless it helps with your happiness and even then you don't give that thing/person all your power becuase again this is YOUR power :)
Okay I'll get to it..... This was my post on Facebook this morning:
I have to say before I start that this woman is amazing.... I admire her and thank her very much for many of my thoughts and feelings, truths and path in the last few weeks..... I had already been on the path i'm going now, but she inspired me to go BIGGER, do MORE, enjoy it more and remember to take care of myself while I'm on my mission of helping others...... I am so blessed to have met her in person! I wish I could have sat down and talked to her for a few whole days or weeks! She just radiates her passion and her awesomeness......
So I am 8 pages into this book (Which I HIGHLY recommend!) and I've come across the first things I want to blog about..... YOUR POWER>....... HMMMM Did you know you have powers? They are SUPER powers and we all have them! I know I have power I have seen it work in many ways.... Through me and through others I've talked to.... I'm not trying to sound all high and mighty.... I'm actually talking about the power to choose.... Choose what you want with your life, choose your own path.... This POwer is YOURS you should never give it away unless it helps with your happiness and even then you don't give that thing/person all your power becuase again this is YOUR power :)
Okay I'll get to it..... This was my post on Facebook this morning:
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Some thoughts on Death.......
So Not only did I think of my daddy last night after I saw a motorcycle I also got a visit from him in my dream last night.... It was so nice to see him again! And while I should feel better because I got to see him..... I feel a little sad and just kinda having a hard time getting up for the day.... I am not sure why this is so upsetting for me at this particular moment, I mean I think of him at least once a day or every few days and smile :) I know he's up there watching over me, but I just feel sad.... I guess thats okay as long as its done after a few hours :P
I just got to thinking about all the nice things that were done for our family The next two weeks after my fathers unexpected death.... I just can't remember if I ever said thank you..... so then I started thinking about all these people who were there for me, and my family and I get to trying to remember if I did thank them????? Am I crazy, because I can't remember if I thanked everyone going on 13 years ago?!??! So I want to thank you again.... There were so many of you that were there, you comforted my grandmother and grandfather, my Fathers sisters and Brothers, My mom and Step mother and us (His children) I used to think of only the parts I didn't like.... Which was pretty much all of it! I hated the fact that he was gone! I didn't like the way he left, I felt embarrassed, sad, and really PISSED off....There is a lot that is still a blur, like either I was just removed from my body at that time or maybe i just shoved it deep down inside me and its not ready to come to surface yet! I hated that people would say "They're Sorry" (To this day I TRY not to ever say that to anyone grieving.... I am sorry too, but I hate when someone just says "I'm sorry for your loss") I was 15 years old when my father passed away..... I had just written him a letter asking him why he was never there.... Why I saw him drive by on his motorcycle but he didn't stop? Didn't he love me? Didn't he want to spend time with me???? Why did he tell me he was coming but then wouldn't come? I had so much pain and I was so mad with him.... I wrote him this letter and then He died..... and then My Step brother blamed me and said that it was my fault he got drunk that night!!!!! It was my fault, "He was SO UPSET when he read your letter!" "You hurt his feelings very bad"
I held on to this guilt for so long!!!! I killed my father.... I killed my father by telling the truth about how I felt..... :(
Since then..... I have learned alot about my father, about the things he did and the things he saw, and went through.... He was a Vietnam Veteran! He was a Husband to three beautiful women, (Different times of course) He was the Father to four beautiful children. He had alot of great qualities about him, and there was so much he probably wishes he could do again.... or do over. I love my father regardless of how much he was here for me, or what happened... that is in the past, i love him for giving me life.... For giving me the opportunity to live and make this beautiful family of mine. Theres so much more I could say about him.... I could talk about him for days.... Theres still so much I DON"T know about him....
I love to listen to stories about my father, as a child, a teenager, a man..... I love hearing about him and what he really was before the Alcohol and the Post Traumatic Stress Disorder..... Even during that time, he was quite an interesting man :)
Because of my father I have a passion for helping others, for promoting "No Drinking and Driving" for helping others through depression and for being a role model to young adults who may have every reason to go down the wrong path..... I have a passion to help.... before its too late.
Well I don't know where this Blog Article was supposed to go, now that I read back it has many directions.... All about my father but to sum it up.... I feel sad today, I miss him very much, THANK YOU so much if you were here for us during his death, and funeral and after, Guilt, and help.....
I just got to thinking about all the nice things that were done for our family The next two weeks after my fathers unexpected death.... I just can't remember if I ever said thank you..... so then I started thinking about all these people who were there for me, and my family and I get to trying to remember if I did thank them????? Am I crazy, because I can't remember if I thanked everyone going on 13 years ago?!??! So I want to thank you again.... There were so many of you that were there, you comforted my grandmother and grandfather, my Fathers sisters and Brothers, My mom and Step mother and us (His children) I used to think of only the parts I didn't like.... Which was pretty much all of it! I hated the fact that he was gone! I didn't like the way he left, I felt embarrassed, sad, and really PISSED off....There is a lot that is still a blur, like either I was just removed from my body at that time or maybe i just shoved it deep down inside me and its not ready to come to surface yet! I hated that people would say "They're Sorry" (To this day I TRY not to ever say that to anyone grieving.... I am sorry too, but I hate when someone just says "I'm sorry for your loss") I was 15 years old when my father passed away..... I had just written him a letter asking him why he was never there.... Why I saw him drive by on his motorcycle but he didn't stop? Didn't he love me? Didn't he want to spend time with me???? Why did he tell me he was coming but then wouldn't come? I had so much pain and I was so mad with him.... I wrote him this letter and then He died..... and then My Step brother blamed me and said that it was my fault he got drunk that night!!!!! It was my fault, "He was SO UPSET when he read your letter!" "You hurt his feelings very bad"
I held on to this guilt for so long!!!! I killed my father.... I killed my father by telling the truth about how I felt..... :(
Since then..... I have learned alot about my father, about the things he did and the things he saw, and went through.... He was a Vietnam Veteran! He was a Husband to three beautiful women, (Different times of course) He was the Father to four beautiful children. He had alot of great qualities about him, and there was so much he probably wishes he could do again.... or do over. I love my father regardless of how much he was here for me, or what happened... that is in the past, i love him for giving me life.... For giving me the opportunity to live and make this beautiful family of mine. Theres so much more I could say about him.... I could talk about him for days.... Theres still so much I DON"T know about him....
I love to listen to stories about my father, as a child, a teenager, a man..... I love hearing about him and what he really was before the Alcohol and the Post Traumatic Stress Disorder..... Even during that time, he was quite an interesting man :)
Because of my father I have a passion for helping others, for promoting "No Drinking and Driving" for helping others through depression and for being a role model to young adults who may have every reason to go down the wrong path..... I have a passion to help.... before its too late.
Well I don't know where this Blog Article was supposed to go, now that I read back it has many directions.... All about my father but to sum it up.... I feel sad today, I miss him very much, THANK YOU so much if you were here for us during his death, and funeral and after, Guilt, and help.....
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Birthdays (for the child or the parent?)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!!!! Is a Birthday party really a celebration for the child or is it for the parent?!?!?! I mean they don't really care about a party until they're about 3 so .......
Easton Turned 3 Last Thursday!!!! My baby boy is now 3 years old!!! NOW whoever said that 2 was the "Terrible 2's" Must have been crazy! As soon as Easton turned 3 he has been CRAZY and mean!!!! One would even say out of control! Now he wasn't quite an angel at 2 either but he's definately taken a new light to the term "Terrible" LOL Now i get upset over it but in a few years I'll be laughing and wishing he was still this ornery innocent little boy!!!! So I'm going to enjoy it, although he's still going to get punished :P
Azylen then turned 1 last FRIDAY!!!!!! She is already the baby, gets away with everything and is ornery but (so cute) LOL I think i've got my hands full!!!! So their birthday party is this Sunday and Easton is SUPER excited to see all his friends and they're going to "Play in my Farm" in Eastons Words.... Azylen however has no idea! She doesn't care whether she has a party or not! But she's going to love digging into a cake!!!!
NOW Being the MOM and super Planner I am I started planning their birthday party last year........... Started is the key word... LOL So this Sunday is the party and MOMMY AKA Super Planner is Nowhere CLOSE to being ready LOL..... Theres SO much to do and its past crunch time LOL Why oh why do I do this? I think I totally get it from my mother! Thank you ANNA HAYNES LOL
At any rate whether we have paper Plates and forks and pretty cake or decorations is not the point the point is my babies got another year older and I (THATS RIGHT ME!) I survived the WHOLE year without throwing them off the deck :) I'm pretty proud! Now..... onto the next year. hahaha
Easton Turned 3 Last Thursday!!!! My baby boy is now 3 years old!!! NOW whoever said that 2 was the "Terrible 2's" Must have been crazy! As soon as Easton turned 3 he has been CRAZY and mean!!!! One would even say out of control! Now he wasn't quite an angel at 2 either but he's definately taken a new light to the term "Terrible" LOL Now i get upset over it but in a few years I'll be laughing and wishing he was still this ornery innocent little boy!!!! So I'm going to enjoy it, although he's still going to get punished :P
Azylen then turned 1 last FRIDAY!!!!!! She is already the baby, gets away with everything and is ornery but (so cute) LOL I think i've got my hands full!!!! So their birthday party is this Sunday and Easton is SUPER excited to see all his friends and they're going to "Play in my Farm" in Eastons Words.... Azylen however has no idea! She doesn't care whether she has a party or not! But she's going to love digging into a cake!!!!
NOW Being the MOM and super Planner I am I started planning their birthday party last year........... Started is the key word... LOL So this Sunday is the party and MOMMY AKA Super Planner is Nowhere CLOSE to being ready LOL..... Theres SO much to do and its past crunch time LOL Why oh why do I do this? I think I totally get it from my mother! Thank you ANNA HAYNES LOL
At any rate whether we have paper Plates and forks and pretty cake or decorations is not the point the point is my babies got another year older and I (THATS RIGHT ME!) I survived the WHOLE year without throwing them off the deck :) I'm pretty proud! Now..... onto the next year. hahaha
If I had No Fear, What would I do?
So one of the things that MK Mueller said at the South Dakota Early Childhood Conference a couple weekends ago was: If I had NO Fear What would I do????
Well Think about that..... If you really had NO Fear What would you do?
There is so much things I don't do because, number 1 I don't want to and number 2 I'm afraid given my family history I'll like it too much.... Ie: Drink, Drugs, ect....
But I don't think she was referring to these things.... If I had no Fear What would I do?
1. I would take my family and just go, we'd travel the world in our vehicle, camp and work when we needed more money..... (Wouldn't that be fun?!?!)
2. I would probably start speaking as a motivational speaker, I'd speak to everyone about things that are hard to talk about, motivate them, inspire them, show them they are so much more than they could have ever dreamed..... You know I'd probably want to start, and end on the reservations.... I want and see so much they can do, I wish they could see the potential in their land and themselves! I want to inspire the younger generation and my generation to do something different..... to start making a difference.
3. If I had no fear, I'd probably do quite a bit more things than I do now, I wouldn't feel like I had limits and had to stay within those limits.... I wouldn't care what people thought or if they were mad at me.... You know this is one of the biggest flaws I have about myself is worrying too much about how others FEEL about what I do or say.... Its not that I don't tell them anyway but I fear that they'll be mad at me for one reason or another for saying the wrong thing.... I like to tell people the truth, or how I see things.... I like to make people feel better :) I like to make them see there are other ways to get what they want.... and that they should NEVER give up on their life, their dreams, and their desires....
4. I'd stop thinking so much :) LOL
HMMM I'm sure there are so many more things i'd do if I had no fear but I'll have to think even more.
Well Think about that..... If you really had NO Fear What would you do?
There is so much things I don't do because, number 1 I don't want to and number 2 I'm afraid given my family history I'll like it too much.... Ie: Drink, Drugs, ect....
But I don't think she was referring to these things.... If I had no Fear What would I do?
1. I would take my family and just go, we'd travel the world in our vehicle, camp and work when we needed more money..... (Wouldn't that be fun?!?!)
2. I would probably start speaking as a motivational speaker, I'd speak to everyone about things that are hard to talk about, motivate them, inspire them, show them they are so much more than they could have ever dreamed..... You know I'd probably want to start, and end on the reservations.... I want and see so much they can do, I wish they could see the potential in their land and themselves! I want to inspire the younger generation and my generation to do something different..... to start making a difference.
3. If I had no fear, I'd probably do quite a bit more things than I do now, I wouldn't feel like I had limits and had to stay within those limits.... I wouldn't care what people thought or if they were mad at me.... You know this is one of the biggest flaws I have about myself is worrying too much about how others FEEL about what I do or say.... Its not that I don't tell them anyway but I fear that they'll be mad at me for one reason or another for saying the wrong thing.... I like to tell people the truth, or how I see things.... I like to make people feel better :) I like to make them see there are other ways to get what they want.... and that they should NEVER give up on their life, their dreams, and their desires....
4. I'd stop thinking so much :) LOL
HMMM I'm sure there are so many more things i'd do if I had no fear but I'll have to think even more.
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